My biggest weakness is ice cream. Not just any ice cream. Mostly Dairy Queen. I was on a roll for a while of getting it a couple times a week. I knew that no one in the family would say no because they all love it too. As soon as I got at least one other person to agree we were on our way. I LOVE it. I know that probably 50% of my weight is due to ice cream alone. I am not crazy about meat, potatoes, chips, cookies, cheese, pasta, or any other fattening food you can think of but ice cream is my crack. A few months ago I told Michael that I can't have Dairy Queen anymore. I told him no matter what, do not let me get it. He said yeah but what if you get really mad and bitchy. I said well then I just have to get over it. So....the first few times I threw out the "Hey let's go get some DQ" and he responded with a flat no, I have to admit I was a little taken back. Immediately my ego kicked in and said oh well just go anyway, he doesn't have to have any, he will forgive you, he knows it's your biggest weakness, he eats cheese ALL the time, he feeds his POP addiction on top of having HBP, go have your ice cream, you deserve it. As much as my ego tried to convince me to go anyway I realized that if I don't have a partner in crime I don't want to go. Saturday night I mentioned how I wanted to get some ice cream. I was miserable with cold and back ache. I couldn't work out and I just wanted to feed my pathetic self. Amanda was sitting next to me (one who I can usually convince) and she immediately said "count me out." It stung a little when she said that but it's what I needed to hear.Since then I have purchased my Skinny Cow Chocolate Truffel bars which are only 100 calories each and also some fudge bars that are only 90 calories. One of those are my indulgence in the evening. My treat for eating good and staying on course. I still would prefer the big DQ peanut butter cup blizzard or chocolate dipped waffle bowl sundae but those won't get me to my goal. I look forward to the day that I no longer crave them. I haven't had DQ in probably 3 months at least. I still want it but I want to lose this weight even more. I can't wait til the craving stops!
I guess I want to say - Great job for staying away from DQ - but why oh why are you craving it? What does ice cream signify for you? I know it's boring, but if you could look into why ice cream is your vice - is it because it comforts you? Go find another way to comfort yourself -a REALLY indulgent way that isn't food. Or maybe it's something else that triggers your cravings. The idea here is to find the emotional triggers for our vices. I had a tremendously hard day today and turned to M & M's - their sweet little yumminess makes me feel less unworthy, until I find I've eaten most of the bag and feel beyond completely ill from it.
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Thanks Jill, I think that my DQ cravings go back to childhood. We had one not too far from our home and that was our typical treat. I remember even times that my mom and I would walk to DQ and figure it wasn't too bad because we exercised to get it. Of course I didn't know then that I was putting in a lot more calories than I was actually burning. I am not sure why I am craving it so much but you have me curious to find out. I will have to start making note of the cravings and figure out what my triggers are.
ReplyDeleteI think it's great that your body is making you feel ill from eating those M&M's. What better way to keep us from eating something because we know willpower isn't always there!
I'm so proud of you for kicking your DQ monkey. Now lets go get some cheese and pop! ... smarty.
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